Trust and obey!!!

Just now I was scolded or sort of being 'tegur' by one of my colleague from another department. The reason is that she thinks that I am doing my task a bit too slow and that I am not learning a lot which I need to do so, so that I can be success. Well she always told me that I need to strive hard to become successful. Don't just stay where I am standing now. Well I believe she is right in a sense but I believe as a Christian is that, we should not only focus our life on achieving corporate success only but rather we should focus our life on God's success which is to show love and to help others. Perhaps no one would be there to encourage when we fall, but deep down inside we know that God is there to encourage us and built us.
Just like Mother Theresa. She is a nobody in the eye of corporate success such as being a CEO of companies or any Prime Minister or even any president of USA but all the leader of the world hail her as a succeesful lady and everybody remembers her as the one who helps the poor and who would stand up for the poor. There are a lot of successful corporate leader in the world who do not have any chance of meeting up with President of United State of the America (the so-called world leader) but she as small as she is, gain the acknowledgement of not only meeting him but have the chance to shake hand with him. You can imagine how tall the president is and how short Mother Theresa was. Imagine David standing side by side with Goliath. One small weak being, had nothing in life except for a pure heart seeking God's hand and approval while the other one is who have everything and is the strongest being in the world after God of course. =) I believe because of her, the world recognises that India needs help and because of her, the poor country now have hope, hope that the rich countries would help them. That is what I called success. Not the kind of success that will only makes you gain money and money and money only.. but rather the success that not only help us to gain money, but the money that we gain would help us to help others those who are in need. Therefore let us reach up to God and ask Him to guide us to where He wants us to go.. Whether we are still poor after we follow Him or not, let us continue to be lead by Him. The main thing about this is God is our richness.
Honestly saying, I do believe what the colleague told me is right. But then it is not 100% right. She is just half right. Cause she just stop at the point when we are rich and successful, we shall gain self honour and self glory. But for me, all honour and glory shall goes back to God. And He is the One who will raise us up with all honour and all glory and we do not need to work to our max for it. We just need to follow and obey Him. That's all. Easy as it can be, well perhaps it is hard. Well hard for me as well. Just let God handle all things and that is what I am letting God handling bout my lost money now. So far, no news yet. They have not demand me for the lost RM660 yet. Thank God for that. Hopefully they won't and that's what I called trust and obey.. (Still in the process of letting all things go and letting Him take charge) =)
Anyway gtg oredi.. Need to go back to work liao.. God bless... =)

Favourite Site!!!

Life has been so bored and dull lately. Not only I got nothing new to do, I am doing all the old tasks in the office. Well it is good though if a person got things to do but then is it good to do the same old thing daily? I don't think so. Well today is one of my earliest retreat from my job, which means today is the earliest time for me to go home (actually I got class at 6.30pm) but that does not give me the reason to find nothing to do. =(
In fact the most suckiest thing happens here is the friendster are blocked or shall I say banned. Why in the world would anybody ban friendster? When online, there are three things I love to do. 1st of all, I love to blog. So that's why you see me in blog now. Thank God they don't ban the blogging session. I believe blog is good. Well it helps to improve English. For once, I believe my English had improved. There is not much of "Manglish" words in the blog (such as "lah") In fact, if all the bloggers combined together and blog in one big blog column, we have actually written a few books though. In fact all the bloggers (if they know each other) can actually wrote books bout their life (sort of like autobiography though). I believe this will makes the reading as a wonderful hobby to the bookworms and perhaps this would be a beginning of a new attractions to those who don't read and don't blog. =) Smart eh? hahaha....
2ndly, I also love friendster. The reason is because I got lotsa friends that I had connected with in this awesome network. Some of them are from my secondary school mate and some even from my old college mate. All this can be done through friendster, the site that connect friends. Despite the fact that they had further their studies overseas, we are still able to keep in touch and get some view of their new pictures. Some of them, we had forgotten their lovely face but with the help from friendster, their faces can be restored. They do not need to sent us their photos via snail mail but rather they can just scan their lovely photos in their friendster and from there we can see the picture oredi. It's something like online tele-conferencing though except that this tele-conferencing don't make noise and there is no movement. Just a face with perhaps a lovely smile which we can't find in real world anymore. =P
3rd favourite online site I love to go is MSN. Well I love to chat though although I do not chat with lotsa ppl. But the current ppl in my MSN friend, it is sufficient enough. We might not be able to meet them face to face always but with the current technology, if she is online always, just like me well we can always chat though. And chat and chat and chat until we all become buddy. Who said we need to meet face to face in order to get to know a person? I mean of course we need to have a same friendly mode when we meet face to face. Remember my motto for MSN? Nothing is more happening than online. Well that is still my motto for now though. Never will I change it. But then I won't online whole day whole night lah. I will know how to control myself lah.. =)
So beside all the three online site above that I had just mention just now, I also love emailing. My favourite email account are Yahoo.com and Mail.com Well I do not know why but I love both the email to the max. =)
Anyway got to go now.. Got class to go soon.. Signing out now.. God bless... =)

Three trees

Once, there were three trees on a hill in the woods. As they were discussing their hopes and dreams, the 1st tree said: "Some day I hope to be a treasure chest. I can be filled with gold, silver and precious gems. I can be decorated with intricate carvings and everyone will see my beauty."
Then the 2nd tree said: "Some day i will be a mighty ship. I will take kings and queens across the waters and sail to the corners of the world. Everyone will feel safe in me because of the strength of my hull."
Finally, the 3rd tree said: "I want to grow to be the tallest and straightest tree in the forest. People who see me at the top of the hill will look up to my branches, and think of the heavens and God, and how close I am to them. I will be the greatest tree of all time and people will always remember me."
A few year after that, a group of woodsmen came upon the trees. One of them looked at the 1st tree and said: "This looks like a strong tree ... I should be able to sell its wood to a carpenter." He began to cut it down. The tree was happy because he knew that the carpenter would turn him into a treasure chest.
At the 2nd tree, the woodsmen said: "This looks like a strong tree; I should be able to sell it to the shipyard." The 2nd tree was happy because he knew he was on his way to become a mighty ship.
When the woodsmen came upon the 3rd tree, he was frightened because he knew that if they cut him down, his dreams would not come true. One of the woodsmen said, "I don't need anything special from my tree. I'll take this one," and he cut it down.
When the 1st tree arrived at the carpenter's, he was made into a feed box for animals. He was then placed in the barn and filled with hay. This was not what he had hoped for at all.
The 2nd tree was cut and made into a small fishing boat. His dreams of being a mighty ship and carrying kings had come to an end. The 3rd tree was cut into a large pieces and left alone in the dark. The years went by, and the trees forgot about their dreams.
One day, a man and a woman came into the barn. She gave birth and they placed the baby in the hay in the feed box made from the 1st tree. The man wished that he could have made a crib for the baby, but the manger would have to do. The tree could feel the importance of this event and knew that it had held the greatest treasure of all time.
Years later, a group of man got in the fishing boat made from the 2nd tree. One of them was tired and went to sleep. While they were out on the water, a great storm arose and the tree didn't think it was strong enough to keep the man safe. The man woke the sleeping man, and He stood and said, "Peace", and the storm stopped. The tree knew then that it had carried the King of Kings.
Finally, someone came and got the 3rd tree. It was carried through the streets as people mocked the man carrying it. When they came to a stop at the top of the hill, the man was nailed to the tree and left to die there. When Sunday came, the tree realised that it was strong enough to stand at the top of the hill and be as close to God as possible because Jesus had been crucified on it.
Each of the trees got what it wanted, although not in the way it had imagined. In the same way, God's plans for us are not always our plans, but they are always for the best.

Well the story above touches me a lot and I hope that it touches everybody who read it as well.. Before I end my blog today, I would like to wish everybody a wonderful and a Happy Easter Celebration... May God be with you all where ever you all are... God bless....

Gila babi punya testimony!!!! (in a good way of course)

Before I write this testimony, please be informed that this testimony is going to be a bit lengthy, a bit long-winded though. Please do not fall asleep as I wrote this testi and any case that you migh fall asleep, please sleep enough 1st before reading it. Otherwise I do not want anybody fall from their sleep when they read this testi. Thanks for your co-operation. In case anyone don't know why is the title, I called it as gila babi. Well the reason is this testimony I wrote here is not what I want to do but then I believe this is what God wants me to go through which is beyond any 'me' (Me here means Lik Ee) can actually take it but then I don't know lah.. I believe that He loves me so much that He wants me to depend on Him rather than any other ppl. But if anybody think otherwise, then it is their belief but this is what I am facing through and therefore 'I believe' this is what gone through in my life though.
Let me start my testimony by telling you what had happened throughtout this whole week. 1st of all, as usual I was back in office on Monday for my work. Well that day was 10th April, a very dizzy and sleepy day as we all know, 1st day of work of the week after a weekend break. Never in my whole life knew that this incident is going to happen and furthermore this is for me, after all another Monday except that of course that day is the last day of payment for fees and things like that. The due date of all payments. Honestly I was as usual, doing my routine duties, lotsa task to be done. Run here and there though.. Work like no one's business. Well that day I get 'sound' by other department's boss for not pick up the phone calls which was ringing for long time. Then I also receive remarks from another department's boss for not picking up the phone as well. 3rd incident was when a colleague of mine from another department giving me tension by telling me to get a task done for him which I can't due to because I was so busy with my own work oredi.
Anyway that day was a terrible 'shit' (sorry for my word). Well that 's' word describes everything. Everybody came to pay and I can't handle all of them. The more I work, the tiredness and dizziness I get. At the end of the day, (this is where the testimony starts) I lost RM660 from all the money I collected. Well guess what? The RM660 covers more than half of my salary and now after minusing the EPF and SOCSO, I left myself with less than RM500. Btw for info, I do not earn that much. My salary is slight above RM1k, including the overtime pay I got. A lot of ppl scolded me or thinks I am stupid for working this such low pay job. Well I got my own reason though. 1st of all, I am thankful enough I managed to secure myself with a job and secured myself with life that I find no point I complaint actually. A lot of ppl out there are still searching for job after job even though they got themselves a degree. Perhaps a double degree and even a triple degree qualification. In fact I believe some of them who holds a masters and still looking for a suitable job. For me with a diploma in accounting right now at the moment, my current job is sufficient enough. My thought is once I got my CIMA certificate, I shall proceed with a newer plan and newer job but not now. After all, my colleagues (my department colleagues) treats me well. Why should I changed? Let's learn to be content with our life for once.
Anyway sorry to be carried away with my own thought. Let's go on... Well I've lost that much of amount right now, RM660 just for no reason though.. In fact RM660 is not a small amount you know.. It is big for me.. I can use it to pay for my rent, food, entertainment and transport back to Ipoh. But then what to do.. It happened oredi.. Was very depressed these couple of days. Some of the CFers know bout it. Well thank you very much for the prayer. In fact, appreciate it though. But honestly saying, I was thinking that there is no such way that my RM660 can be lost. Not in the computer system and neither would I simply lost it though.. Come on lah.. Talking bout money.. I am super sensitive bout it.. In fact, I am so... proctective over the money issue that I do not believe that I would ever lost that much of money. In fact last Monday was the only time since I start working in this company that I ever lost this large sum of money. So in that sense I believe I am super careful bout my money condition.
Well Tuesday was a public holiday.. Prophet Muhammad's birthday. Went for dim sum with Kenny and Aaron.. Honestly saying I am super encouraged by that two guy. Well Aaron for instance smsed to 6 to 7 ppl when he found out I've lost the money. Thanks Aaron.. As for Kenny, he actually treated me Dim Sum and bring me and Aaron to watch 'The Inside Man' in GSC in One Utama. Thanks a lot to you two.. =) But somehow or rather the event that day minimise my worries over the money incident. With their advice they believed that God would do something bout it. Well that helps a lot too since I got no one to hold on except for God.
Well came Wednesday. Me and my colleagues believed that something was wrong with the computer system and perhaps it is not my fault after all. Well I am happy with that idea since I do not want to involve myself with such an issue. That's me after all.. Never want to put the blame on myself but rather on other ppl or other thing for this instance. But the technician told me that the amount of the money and the report from the computer system and even when I recounted the money, it was all tally. I was all numb out. I mean if the computer were correct then it was me who actually lost the money.. It was all unfair!!! Argghhhhh.... Anyway with that mind plus my disappointment, I was totally lost. Whole day no mood to work and that happens until just now.. Wanna cry last night and actually when I wanna cry that time, I actually fallen asleep.. *Lame me* Actually when things like this happen, I always ask God this question, "Does God actually really wanna see me crying?" I mean I challenge God, if He really wanna see me cry and purposely make me miserable by crying, so be it. Let me cry and embarassed myself.
Today.. Well I was still super sad and disappointed over the incident that while I was walking to the office, I prayed a prayer. I tell God that if any miracle would happen due to because of this, I shall tell ppl bout His goodness and how He had deliver me from hell and bring me back alive again. In fact I told Him that if I ever get the money back, wonderful testimonies would be told so that everybody would be blessed. Well here I am telling you all the testimony though.. =) Anyway the story haven't end yet. Well the technician came again today. He checked and checked again and confirmed that all the things he stated yesterday is correct and I got no choice but to payback the money.
Surprisingly, I do not have any more angry or scariness and nervousness in me anymore. I am more like relief from my burden and I felt more freedom. I do not know why. Perhaps He had heard my prayer and He wants me to let go and let Him handle all things. Despite all things I still do not know why all these things happened, but then I believe and felt that He is in charge. I remembered the story of David and Bethseba. Well when Bethseba was pregnant with David's baby, God told him that his child would not live. Well he fasted and grieved and all his cousels very pretty much worried bout him. But when the baby died, he stand up and go back eating his food. I am like that now.. Was worried before the final sentence was given (depsite the fact that I do not know why have I done wrong) I was grieving and pleading but after the final answer is being given, I felt the reliefness in me and that makes me still faithfully committing myself to Him. In fact, my colleagues were telling me that I was so lucky because the boss before me was strict than the current boss because the previous boss' policy was if you lose any amount of money whether big or small, they wants the money to be banked in the next day. They even told me that the current boss might allows me to pay back in monthly installment, perhaps RM100 a month for six months and another RM60 per the last month. Altogether I need 7 months to pay back the total amount. Honestly saying also, despite all things also, I called my mom to tell her bout it. Well I may be foolish for telling my parent this news and make them worried but I never intend to hide anything from them. The fact that I used to lie to them a lot proves that I am more worthy for them to trust in now rather than last time. And guess what my mom said? Well she sounds worried at the beginning.. but at the end she told me to go to class and study hard!! I was like, @$#%^* ? What the crap.. She just told me to study and that's all and pay back the money in installment if possible.. Honestly saying, I preferred her to scold me and to scream at me for losing the money.. But she doesn't do that and I believe that, that is God's given wisdom to me as a child to her. Like how God never get angry with me even though I did something wrong.
Anyway got to go now.. Going for cell group now.. See ya and I hope this blog shall be a blessing to the person who read it.. Thanks and God bless... =)

God's mercy on me....

Well recently a lot of things happened... I mean starting from early this year itself. It is not something small though but rather it looks big and complicated and a lot of time I do not want to brought that memory back into my life but it does. Well God does. One of it would be my unforgiveness and bitterness towards ppl.
Bout a month ago, a friend of mine came to me after about two years of misssing in action (MIA). Well he had not been going to church and sort of slacking in Him. I do not know why he had come to me but later on I know why he had come to me. Well somehow or rather deep down within me I apologise to him for making my life miserable. He was one of the person in previous CF friends that brought me bitterness. So to say lah. Anyway I know this friend of mine is reading my blog.. Hey friend... I hope you don't mind me writing things down in my blog ya.. There is no name mentioned here so that no one would get embarrasement here, ok? Anyway later on he share with me his experience and his lacking in God. Well honestly I am also not that experience in saying things and giving encouragement except that I had become more and more compassionate and more and more wanting God rather than anything else. I used to love power and other things that can make me rich and successful but now I want only Him and to serve Him faithfully. In order to do that, God need to break me and now with all my unforgiveness and bitterness within me, He can't. Guess what happen? This friend came to me and unexpectedly I apologised to him for keeping my anger towards him and not commit it to God. I harboured all the bitterness and angerness so that if there is any opportunity passes by, I am gonna find fault with him and laugh at him when he falls. But guess what? God gone through it and He is sort of like telling me to break my anger off with peace and love. Not hatred with hatred. Well honestly saying with my egonism very high, I honestly saying I do not want to remember all my forgiveness towards him cause that would mean unfairness to me when he makes me angry last time. Anyway I grew into hungerness for Him and with ppl beside me right now that no matter what happen, I shall be by your side in case any of you need help. I somehow or rather pray and hope that everyone of you in CF would grow in Him and obey Him in all things that you do. Let Him handle all things and not you alone. Let God be God and let you be you.. Let God handle His things such as making impossible things possible and you as His child pray hard for things to become success and act with faith. Do not let go of God. And not let anything hinders you from serving Him cause I was in that situation before. I allow myself to hinder myself away from God and do what I want to do. At the end I fall. Thank God He is full of mercy and He actually pick me back and allow me to live again. Otherwise you would see me differently than who I am right now. The backslide Christian of me.
Anyway the 2nd thing I am learning now is this. Mun Yee, as being my closest kai mui is helping and lending me a hand to teach me how to be a good Christian and good brother. Well in order to help her knowing God, I need to help myself knowing Him too. It is a win-win situation though. Well it is hard to teach someone to know God though but what we had gone through, we actually share to them, helping them and passing down our knowledge about God like how we passing down our baton when we are no longer in leadership position and with the hope that they would be better than us. We ought to slowly watering the seed that had been planted unto others so that there would be no birds or no hindrance that make it cannot grow. In fact, if we got any extra fertilizer, we ought to use it nurture the person so that that particular person would grow into a smooth Christian. So with this in mind, I believe that we need to walk the truth and not just say the truth and that's what God is doing in my life right now. Of course there is ups and downs, but with God in us, above us, in front of us, behind us, below us, beside us, who can be against us then. Am I right?
Anyway gtg oredi.. The computer screen is a bit too bright for me to type anymore. So God bless and I hope that I am not blogging out of topic again, huh? And be long-winded again? =( God bless and take care...

Beautiful Easter performance.....

Went to KDU Auditorium last night to watch the Easter presentation performed of course by KDU CF ppl.. Well everything was not bad though.. There are sketeches, worships, God's message, singing of songs, rock band etc etc.. =) My favourite is the worship.. Don't know why I enjoyed the worship very much.. I believe God's presence was in KDU auditorium.. Cause I felt it though.. Normally I don't but yesterday was cool...
But there is one thing that really my mind off and I believe this should be given credit though. That's why I am blogging it here so that somehow or rather ppl would appreciate it. (I mean the ppl that I mentioned ere) The one thing that is making me feel so unworthy as a Christian (not in a bad manner but it does make me feel embarrase as being a Christian) is that despite all the things that happened and performed, I am touched by the very fact that Clement and Chris actually came to the stage and be the last performer to perform three worship songs. I'm not very much bothered about their voice but rather on their heart. They actually sang worship song on the stage where everybody else is performing their very own secular songs and style to win the judge's heart in order to win the top three place. Well in the end Chris and Clement got 6th place. I believe that God sees their heart more than their voice and talent in the performance and despite they got 6th place, they actually (I believe) they got 1st place in God's very own eyes.
Honestly saying, I can say that the way we see things is different than the way God see things. I believe He sees the heart but we sees the talent. Well there is no right or wrong in the competition honestly (there is no vulgar words and everything is clean cut.. Bravo to Eu Jin and Aaron for that) but just that we tend to see the performance in our very own eyes. Not God's. How many of us would sang worship song in Malaysia Idol or America Idol? Or local singing competition where we are given choices to choose the songs? Honestly saying and I admit it as well, none. In fact I don't. Confession to be make here. I do not tune on worship song when I'm in the public. I somehow or rather feel ashamed or shy to say that I am a Christian with Christian songs on. But I do switch on Christian songs at home when I am alone or with family. In fact with friends also I do not mind but sorry.. Not to stranger. But anyway I am changing lah... Well when these kind of things I can see myself doing and I do not change, it is very scary though. A good eg for this blog would be the life of young David. Before he actually became a king, he claimed that he shall defeat Goliath with three stones whereas the Israelites tend to think, "Come on lah.. Where can?" And they wanted to gave him all sort of armour and weapon to fight the Goliath. But David insisted and he actually killed the Goliath with one blow. Not even three stones though. (If I'm not mistaken) My point of view is this. David was a small boy that time and he do not have anything. What he have he just gave it to God. Honestly saying with humanly thinking, sometimes we may ponder after what we declared to the public that we are going to do this and that, can we do it? Well I guess David had the same thought as well.. He might sit there and wonder just after he declared he is going to kill the giant, "sure or not 1st?" But he just do it. And he killed the giant at the end. The small stone is actually his talent. Not to say his talent is to kill the giant but rather he believed that the stone can actually does miraculous wonder for God's name to be glorified. Same goes to Chris and Clement. Despite their limitation in their voice and talent (hopefully not lah) I believe that they managed to gain God's attention on them with their performance. =)
Well I do not know lah but we all tend to focus our life and eye on talent and things on the earth too much that we tend to forgot the Maker and the Giver of both the talent and things of the earth. Don't worry.. I am also one of them. But then let's make this world a better by thinking the way God thinks. Otherwise there would be no improvement though..
Anyway got to go back to work now.. Hope what I am blogging here means something to everybody.. God bless.. Happy weekend.. =)

The Day we called Easter...

A Man was going to be persecuted on the cross. Well He knows what is going to happen to Him but not the world. The world thought that they actually wins when they crucified this Man on the cross, the most horrifying way of killing a human being and the most humilating way (I would say) during those ancient time despite the fact that He never kills anyone, neither does He had any adulterous relationship with anybody, or should I say, He actually does nothing that worth for Him to be killed. But well what He does was just healed ppl and preach His Gospel to the world, that God loves them and He defended those who are weak and those who can't take care of themselves. In fact most of the time, when ppl confronted Him or mock Him especially during the time He was caught by the world for doing nothing wrong, He just kept quiet. Those who believed He is not wrong just kept quiet for the fear that the Pharisees and the teacher of the law would expel them from the synagogues if they would ever make noise or riot. All in all, the teacher of the law and the Pharisees just wanted Him out of their life so that they can have humanly peace and continue to live in humanly glory instead of God.
Well before He was crucified, there was no such things as Good Friday or Easter Sunday. That particular Sunday was just another Sunday or what ppl called as Sabbath Day, so they said and think. Well guess what? That particular Sunday or Sabbath Day is the beginning of Easter Day, a day that Jesus was crucified and then die before He was raised to Heaven again. It's a day of victory and a day to acknowledge that Jesus is alive and to make known to the world that satan had lost the battle. The very fact that the last minutes before He die (the word of the dying ppl are usually very precious) He still declared us His brothers and sister and ask God the Heavenly Father to forgive us, the sinners. It is only after that, that we are saved from God's wrath through Jesus' sacrificial blood.
Remember if Jesus were never to die at all, and if God is not willing to sacrifice His only Begotten Son, we would not have been survived His wrath. It is because of His death and His ressurrection, all of us can die with our mind and heart in peace with Him. Otherwise we would all be scared to die though. And honestly saying, all of us have been learning all these things and sometime tends to ignore and forget what we had said before when we 1st accept Him as Christ and Saviour and make our Jesus Christ. My 1st time accepting Christ was nothing much to said about because I was still the same after I accepted Him and since I was born in a so-called Christian family, there is nothing new to me about Christ till I actually tasted Him. But guess what? Despite me rejecting Him last time or shall I say ignored Him, He was always there for me. For me, that's what Easter is all about. It is all about Him and nothing is about me. He does everything according to what He said and He act more than what He said. That's why I am changing day by day.
Anyway yup.. That is what I wanna say until now.. Let's make this Easter celebration and Easter Day to come a day for Jesus cause that's His life and it is Him who was killed and raised to life and it is not us.. May God be all honour and glory.. =) God bless.. Remember Him as our Saviour and not some kind of ancient gods. God bless and take care.. =)

Testimony...

Well guess what? There's a testimony that I wanna share here that somehow or rather God had answered me few days .. Well I lost a few receipts 2 1/2 months ago. Well I was supposed to retrieve it back to the account department but then due to some unforseeable circumstances I can't. The account department boss even told me that (actually warned me) that if I failed to retrieve the lost receipts back, I would have to pay back the amount of the receipt according to the amount that the student had paid. So I prayed and so are the current KDU CF members. (Thanks to all of you who had prayed together with me)
Anyway since last week my account boss had not making a lot of noises. In fact she asked me to try to find back the receipts and that's all. She even talk nicer to me though.. There is no sounds of anger or unhappiness in her. Thank God though everything is going on smoothly.. But then despite all things, let us continue for God's favour to be upon on us in all matters no matter what circumstances it is gonna be.. God bless...
Ps: Sorry cause I do not how to write this testimony out.. Hope you all understand what I am thanking God for ya.. =)