Prayer request.. =(

I am in dilemma now. Well I am still in crossroad concerning my life. What I mean by this is that every staff in my company is offered a place to transfer to Kampar for work. Well if they choose not to work they would stay back in PJ. The problem is they would have bout 4 to 5 more years before they actually need to resign or either way follow the crowd back to Kampar as there would be no more UTAR in PJ anymore..
As for me, I am actually very reluctant to do anything. Well for one thing I want to know whether is my decision of going back to Kampar is just a way of hiding from those who I don't like or am I really want to know that. I mean I am half-hearted of whether to stay back in PJ or should I go back to Kampar to work? And I got an external exam which is CIMA to sit for and staying in Ipoh and spent time studying there would do me a lot of help. But one thing is for sure. I am scared of making decision. Cause I do not want to go back to square one. I mean for me life in Ipoh is back to square one. Back to where I felt that I am useless.. =( I do not mean working there is sucks but rather working there means I would not be able to achieve a lot of things in my life. So I actually wonder what should I do..
But working back in Ipoh gave me a lot of advantages as well though. I mean I could save up money. I wanted to buy either Wira or Myvi and by staying in Ipoh of course would enable me to buy up the car. Just that I do not want to stuck in Ipoh forever. I want to acheive something in life and one thing definitely is my disadvantages. I would not lost all my friends here in PJ. I mean in Ipoh I do not have much friends. After all my high school was not in Ipoh but rather in Ayer Tawar, Manjung. For those of you who knows where is Pangkor Island, I used to stay in Ayer Tawar not that far from Lumut and Sitiawan. I mean bout half an hour drive to Lumut and 45 minutes to Pangkor Island. All of my friends were either scattered elsewhere or they are gotten married oredi. So basically in Ipoh I do not have much friends. In fact I can count it with my own finger though. =(
Anyway I really need prayer. Prayer to decide whether it is God's will for me to stay in Kampar until I finished my CIMA or should I continue to stay in PJ. Please help me in this. I got half a year to decide.. I really need to hear from God.. Either yes to Kampar or no to Kamapr.. Thanks.. God bless.. =)

Bye bye Mun Yee..

Today is a sad day. Today is my last night spent time with Mun Yee. Tomorrow she is going to fly off to Australia to further her studies oredi. Well all the best to you girl. I shall be missing you very much though mui. I mean all the scolding from you, all the kutuking from you, your voice, your cares and you and you and you.. =) Just pray and wish that you would be able to survive there in Aussie without your family by your side and without us, me and Joram. In all the thing you do or intend to do, please do remember our Lord Jesus Christ in every situation and if you do need help or guidance, please do not forget to ask me though. I would be there for you even if I can't help you. =) Remember that...
Anyway as usual mui, just wish you all the best in your future undertakings. Remember that I always love you no matter where I am and what I am doing. God bless and have a safe trip journey back end of the year oh~~ =) God bless you always Mun Yee.. You are always in my heart and in fact very special place as well.. God bless.. =) And keep in touch..

Rest in peace, aunty Hua.. =)

Today there is an unexpected thing happened to me. Well my maternal aunt just passed away this morning. It is an awfully sad story because she is one of my my mom's favourite younger sister. Well my mom have 12 siblings altogether, including herself. 6 brothers and 5 sisters. One brother and one sister each had died and now this aunt of mine is the second sister of her that died.
Well honestly saying I do not what to feel. I was kinda a bit blur at the moment. Sad and blur at the moment. Well to tell honestly, I do not know what to say. Actually I never expect my aunt to die though. I mean as much as she is not well, but I do not believe that she would had died just like that.
Anyway my aunt was having breast cancer before this. This happened for a while and she was healed. But then sickness spread to her lung and bone. And the last time I remembered she was that she were discharged for a while during Christmas last year before admitted to GH in KL again early last month. Anyway my family were all pretty worried for her though cause she is always the apple of our eyes in the family. Well I am closer to my maternal relatives rather than my paternal and it is to talk to her because she listens to me. =)
She is always there listening to what I believe in Christ, what I learnt and she seldom says bad thing bout me. In fact she hardly make our family into trouble. Instead she would come to us and tell us a lot about God. In maternal relatives, she is one of the spiritual one. I mean beside me, my mom and her, no one else is really into God. She brings her Bible everywhere she go and she would always tell my mom to bring my dad to church.
Thankfully I managed to visit her early last month before she passed away. That time she was in bad condition oredi. I mean her hair dropped and she looks weak but then it was better than before. I guess I am pretty much would miss her. After all I only got one 5th aunty. There is nobody that can replaced her anymore. She is just herself, a unique aunt. =)
Today is also a very special and symbolic day for me. Not because it is Valentine Day but rather today is the day that God show love to her. As much as today is the day where everybody would start treating their love ones nicer, God is also treating His child nicer. He brings her home to with Him on this special day where everybody would just believed that when we love someone, we would not do something bad to them. Well of course when a person dies it does not mean it is a bad thing. Just that ppl do not know that this could also signify that God love her more than us to bring her home in this special celebration. Just hope that God would just bless her soul and she would never ended up down below but rather up above. =)
Well just pray and ask that God would bless her no matter where she is right now. That she would be in heaven serving God Almighty and being love by God. Rest in peace Aunty Hua for no matter where you are, you are always my Aunty Hua. No one else can replaced you but you are special to me, no matter what had happened last time. God bless you.

Bad experience..

Today I encountered something, kinda a cultural shock to me. Well as I was waiting for bus after work today, I met up with some unusual stuff. I do not notice anything bout it but I guess girls are kinda more sensitive with it than me. So here's my story then... =)
Well while waiting for bus, I was standing next to a car. A maroon Proton Iswara to be exact. Can't see the driver's face though. The car engine was on. And I thought he is waiting for his friend or somebody la. Anyway as I move closer towards the car, I noticed that he is half naked. I mean at the bottom, you know what I mean right? I thought he was wearing a short pants. The super type of short and tight as well.. Anyway he drives further a lil bit when I approaches his car. Well I do not care bout it since it is none of my business. Then as I wait for the bus to arrive, I started to sms my friend. Then as I was pre-occupied with texting my friend, a girl sitting not that far from me called me. I was not alerted at first but then I realised that she was calling me. She was asking me to tell the driver to go away cause he is masturbating in the car. I was like, "huh"? Masturbating?? At that time, I came to realise that the guy was not wearing any hot and tight short pant but rather he is totally naked below. I was like "Oh my goodness". I met with a sex maniac and I was like not aware anything bout it. =(
Come to think of it.. I was totally unconscious bout such things. What a blur guy I am. Anyway it was a weird experience. Sort of like a cultural shock although I have not really shocked about it yet cause I was not aware of such incident.. Anyway when I arrive at my friend's house he told me that these kind of things are so normal in the company where I am currently working at.
So girl.. Be careful when you were walking along Seksyen 17, Petaling Jaya cause my friend told me that there were such incidents happening before. So watch up for a Proton Iswara maroon colour car.. Just in case the same person appear again. God bless...=)

Business talk - sure or not? Part 2

Wow!! I never knew ppl would actually comment something bout my previous blog, "business talk, sure or not". Anyway I got a new business talk that I think a lot of ppl would be interesting to know about. In fact if not all, I do hope it would at least it would be interesting for the Christians to ponder about.
The business is so simple. I believe everybody would be able to do. They do not need to chuck up money for any membership. In fact it is free. Just a willing heart. =) Well this is business is actually Godly-minded (so to speak) which I believe that every human being whether they are rich or poor, short or tall or even the beautiful or the ugly would be able to do to it. This business is called "You Care". I mean not just you care but rather you are not always the one who is in the position of thinking you are right all the time. Be there for someone. Every business that I had encountered talks bout profitability. You will gain profit if you work hard for it. Be positive. Be strong. Be a dreamer. Dream dreams that you had ever dreamt before. Well this business is for everybody who have heart. The normal investment in the normal business minded ppl would be start saving and start getting connected. My belief of business is also the same. Just that this time instead of saving you should spent a lot but of course the same belief, start getting connected. What I want everybody who is willing to listen is to start giving. Giving time, money (if can afford.. If can't then we can always give other things), heart, encouragement etc etc.. Money is not always the issue here. But rather it is our willingness to be there that counts.
A lot of ppl would say I am a hypocritical when I mention I do give a lot in term of time. Perhaps look at it this way. You know who you are when I am there for you. I mean when I was in church, KDU Christian Fellowship (if I got the time, of course), watching movie together, yumcha together, meeting up in MSN etc etc.. I am not the type of person who would be there for ppl due to because I do have a lot of misconception with a lot of ppl. A lot of misunderstands come out when I go out with ppl. Therefore if I would want to, I would rather stay alone whenever I can. But this year and last year it is a bit different. Improving a lot though. So think bout it when ppl think I am hypocritical when I spent time with ppl.
Encourage those who are in need. You might not need to give money to those who are in needs if you can't afford. But your heart and yourself be with them does matters a lot. My problems perhaps (a lot of time) would be my mouth. Well I learnt to kept my mouth shut so that others would be able to share their life's out. I mean I gaining nothing out of it but rather I guess other ppl would gain something out of me. God call us to be a blessings to a lot of ppl. How would we do that if we keep on thinking of ourselves. I am learning of how to do it at the moment. It's easy to say but hard to do. But then by God's grace it can be happened. =)
Anyway what I am trying to say now is this. Let us do business of reaching up to ppl. It may be for Christians and it maybe for non-Christians as well. Let us just be there for everybody and invest our life for them. Let them feel good cause in a worship song I listen to before, it says:

Let the weak say I am strong,
Let the poor say I am rich,
Because of what the Lord has done for us.
(adapted from the song, "Give Thanks")

The song is meaningful because we are the child of God and as the child of God, we are to be like Him. So when we say we are like Him, let us be so wrong and let the person we are caring for be right. Well this is what I meant by doing business for God. Also let us be there for ppl because we want to, not because we are forced to. Otherwise all the business we have for God would be so wrong. =) Get what I mean here?
Anyway hopefully what I am trying to blog seem so right for everybody's ear and belief. Honestly what I am trying to say is that let us be there for someone whom we care, whether they are our friend, family, or even loved one. Be there for them till the end. Stand with them and do not give up. We might not have big dreams of how to serve God. But at least we have a big heart which is good enough for Him to use us. It's the willingness that count and not our drems or works. Willingness to be used by God does not mean we must serve Him in the church but we can always be there for them and that's what God's business is all about. And indeed when we died and go to heaven His reward would big for us. And that is by just being there for ppl. =) God bless..

Business talk - sure or not??

I went for a business talk yesterday, invited by one my kai mui. Well this business talk was organised by a company that sells Lamp Berger, a France perfume (so to say), spa & some other body wash products. Well was quite amazed at the way they actually encouraged the potential participants or shall I call them "agents" for this company. The way they portrayed postitive thinking is unbelieveable. I mean they tell the potential "agents" not to give up but if one wants to sucess, they should not fear. They should not even give up. If other ppl mock them they should continue persue on and once a person give up, it is like they are useless to the company oredi. They even said that its better to be independant than working for others.
For me these type of business talk is very unrealistic. Very materialistic. I mean we are all in need of money all the time. I agree with this. Without money we would not be able to survive in this dog eats dog world. Everything we are doing right now needs money. Even me. At the time when I am blogging this out, I am actually save up money from staying in Internet Cafe to blog. In fact I would believe that I could save up some money to do other stuffs. But then not to the extend that money controls you. I mean there are other meaningful things that we can do besides earning lotsa money. They said the so-called "hard earned money" that we are going to make is going to satisfies us. We can earn more money to get whatever things that we want. To buy bigger house, bigger car, to give our parent more money, to dreamt big dreams. We get it. So what's next? More cars. 4 to 5 Porshe.. 4 to 5 houses in Bangsar, Damansara Heights & even Tropicana? Dream of going for vacations in overseas? UK? Australia? France? Give our parent RM10k a month? After doing all that do we think we have other meaningful life anymore? No.. Life at the end is all about money. Money, money and money.. At the end we are so fearful of life. We scared ppl would rob us. Ppl would steal our car. Anybody that walk past us will make us fearful. We are just in fear of everything. I am not saying this because I don't like money. Hey.. I do like money.. I mean I need money to survive. Just that let our life be more realistic. How realisitc? If we would afford it we buy a car. A Myvi for me would do. No need to get a bigger car. After all bigger car its harder to park in supermarket. If we can afford we go to Japan for vacation. I mean if we can't afford it let it be. We can always go some other time. Its not like Japan would sunk or float away or something like that. If we can afford we can always buy a house in Damansara Jaya. One house is sufficient for us. How many houses do we need to stay? We have one body and we can't separate our body into two, right?
Then my kai mui was saying that this company rented HLA (Hong Leong Assurance)'s building. It was one of the top 10 most valuable building in KL. I was like, "so what?" Do you know that we can just bluff ppl into joining this scheme if we want to by renting the building even half or quarter of the building just to impress others? Mind you, I heard that to become a member of this Lamp Berger thing, one need to pay RM2500. I mean I am not sure bout this la but then if the company wants us to pay to join in as a member ain't that ridiculous? We are not sure whether we can do business or not but we are told to pay that much of money. And my mui was saying, if we can't find members to do the business ppl there would other members who would help us. I mean yeah right.. Perhaps they would help us once or twice only. Not all the time. Remember.. They themselves need to cari makan also. They also need to downline to survive. If they would to find for us, where would their income goes to? She even told me that she is basically earning 5 figure income the first month she joined. Perhaps ya. But how long is this 5 figure income gonna last? I mean if there is no downline and if all the downline were educated not to join all sort of business seminars, who would give them 5 figure income?
She even told me the rental for HLA building that the company is renting equals to RM80,000 per month. Wow!! That's a lot of money. But let me calculate it for you. If there is enough 32 ppl join in as a member and each person pays RM2500, then the whole money can cover up the rental. If there is not enough ppl 32 members each month can the company pays for the rental? And guess what? As much as the speaker yesterday says, "there is no such thing as free dinner", I would also say this: "there is no such in the company as doing your own business." Why would I say that? Well from my own understanding of what business is all about, doing your own business is like owning your building, shoplots or even your stall and then buying and selling the goods you produce or buy and sell. For example, a grocery shop or perhaps a restaurant. Please for goodness' sake, do not get bluff by such ppl who believe that joining such a MLM business is doing your own business. I am saying in business term. They are just cheating your money away. In fact I would say it even more strictly. They are just using your greed to make money. With you all thinking this is a fast money, you all ended up lost all your money. Perhaps not now but in future. If you do not believe me, try it and don't regret it later on..
Anyway gtg oredi.. Hope that all these that I had shared is quite useful.. God bless...