Walking With Jesus!!

It is not easy to walk with Jesus and yet a lot of Christians wanted to walk right with Jesus.. Therefore I really want to blog all my walks so that I can remember all the walks that I have had with Jesus and to rely on Him and allow Him to carry me when I couldn't walk right with Him anymore.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Heroic act

I just finished watching the movie called Flags Of Our Fathers directed by Clint Eastwood. Well it was not a Christian movie but rather it is a patriotic movie. A so-called what is the meaning of hero type of movie. I was not really aware what awaits me in the movie but I am touched by the movie itself.
Well it is a story of how a normal man or shall I say a soldier being called hero when the war ends. It talks bout this war between the American and Japanese located in Iwo Jima Island, Japan on 23rd February 1945. It was said that this war was the turning point for the Americans to go against war completely. If you want to know the story, go and watch the movie. I won't elaborate it at all but it was quite touching though. I am sure of it.
But few things I had learnt from the movie. First of all, the title "hero" are not manufactured but are earned. I came to this conclusion that a hero is someone who served others, who are friends to others, who helped their buddies and who care for them. Hero are not there to be served, who be there to lead and who be there neglect others for the sake of themselves. Anyone who called themselves hero but neglected their brothers and sisters, their fellow comrades, their fellow colleagues, their fellows family members, their God, their friends for the sake of the world or for the sake of themselves are no hero at all. They are just a bunch of cowards who self-proclaiming themselves as hero but making sure that whatever they acheived are being done.
There are sayings that a hero ought to be strong. Do you know that a hero can as well be weak? Why I say like that? How strong a person is, are determined by others, and not by himself. I mean a poor man can also become a hero to anotherr if he gave whatever he had to another poor person. That's a hero to me. But a rich man who gives a small portion of his wealth to a poor man, is that a heroic act? Well I guess not because a hero are usually those who humbled themselves up and not being boastful bout it while a rich man might give his small portion to another but he find ways to boast bout his richness. So if the rich man is considered as a hero, then the title "hero" is just another cheap title that everybody can have.
The title "hero" are supposed to be scarce because not everyone can become a hero. This is because a hero endures hardship, perhaps persecution before one can actually achieve this title. Why would I say that? Just like the movie Flag Of Our Fathers, the soldiers who faught for their country had to win the war before they are considered as a hero. In fact they need to endure pain, hardship and might even face their death there, during the war. If for some other reason, they do not completed their task as a soldier and ran back to their respective country, they will not be called hero. In fact, they would be most likely be called coward or even traitor.
Well as the movie continue on, the soldiers who came back after the war was over they did not dare to be recognised as heroes. Why, you may ask? Well like it or not, they had endured hardship and even faces death of their buddies, their comrades. And they all die for their country. Some of the soldiers, had actually giving up their lives for the safetiness of their fellow comrades so that the living soldiers can survived to tell out the story of how they had faught the battle. In fact back home of their respective country, the living soldiers are too ashamed to even share the story of how they had faught for the country. This is because during that time it was glory to actually serve the country and bring back victory. But in the end the living soldiers live in guilt.
Actually I guess we are all like that, like it or not. Well one thing is for certain. We are always ashamed of how to live like Jesus and how He had became our Hero through His sacrificial act and how His sacrificial act was not up to standard to us. A lot of time we thought we are the hero but we are actually not. But like it or not, God always give us chances to become a hero. He does it by showing how to be a real hero for His people. That as we accept Him as our Christ and Saviour, we are actually showing up His Heroic act. As He guide us, He is actually teaching us to be a hero for Him. I can say this loud loud, but deep down inside I am still ashamed of myself. But like it or not, God does not want me to be ashamed of Him and His act of love for us. What I believe He want is that we, as a child of God, He wants us to live up right for Him. That I believe is the righteousness way of being a hero. A hero after God's very own heart. That this hero not only serve mankind but he also seeks after God Himself. And I thank God no matter what happen, I am always there for Him. Be a godly hero and let Him lead us to be a righteous hero. God bless.. =)

PS: Go and watch the movie.. Quite a touching movie though..

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

Early Christmas Gift

Christmas came early this year. I am starting to put in some Christmas carol songs that I love and this song is one of my favorite traditional Christmas Carol. Well the song is called One Small Child by David Meece. I first heard of this song when I was performing in Choir group for Christmas Cantata in KDU in the year of 1998. It was one mega performance and this song has ring into my mind ever since. As for the second song, We Three King, I was not very familiar by I am enjoying the song sang by this group called The Blenders.. Well I am kinda fascinated by their songs.. I mean a capella though. So I guess enjoy.. God bless..



One Small Child

One small child in a land of a thousand
One small dream of a Savior tonight
One small hand reaching out to the starlight
One small Savior of love
One small Savior of love

One king bringing his gold and his riches
One king ruling an army of might
One king kneeling with incense and candlelight
One King bringing us life
One King bringing us life

See the shepherds kneeling before him
See the kings on bended knee
See the mother praising the Father
See his tiny eyelids fall

One small child in a land of a thousand
One small dream of a Savior tonight
One small hand reaching out to the starlight
One small Savior of life
One small Savior of life

See the shepherds kneeling before him
See the kings on bended knee
See the mother praising the Father
See his tiny eyelids fall
(repeat 3X)

See the shepherds
See the kings
See his mother
See his tiny eyelids fall

We Three King of Orient
We three kings of Orient are
Bearing gifts we traverse afar
Field and fountain, moor and mountain
Following yonder star

O Star of wonder, star of night
Star with royal beauty bright
Westward leading, still proceeding
Guide us to thy Perfect Light

Born a King on Bethlehem's plain
Gold I bring to crown Him again
King forever, ceasing never
Over us all to rein

O Star of wonder, star of night
Star with royal beauty bright
Westward leading, still proceeding
Guide us to Thy perfect light

Frankincense to offer have I
Incense owns a Deity nigh
Pray'r and praising, all men raising
Worship Him, God most high

O Star of wonder, star of night
Star with royal beauty bright
Westward leading, still proceeding
Guide us to Thy perfect light

Myrrh is mine, its bitter perfume
Breathes of life of gathering gloom
Sorrowing, sighing, bleeding, dying
Sealed in the stone-cold tomb

O Star of wonder, star of night
Star with royal beauty bright
Westward leading, still proceeding
Guide us to Thy perfect light

Glorious now behold Him arise
King and God and Sacrifice
Alleluia, Alleluia
Earth to heav'n replies

O Star of wonder, star of night
Star with royal beauty bright
Westward leading, still proceeding
Guide us to Thy perfect light


Monday, August 25, 2008

Apocalypto

I just finished watching Apocalypto, directed by Mel Gibson. Well the movie was kinda okay. But it was a bit lame though. It was about this Mayan warrior by the name of Jaguar Paw who was so-called destined to be the sole survivor of Mayan who managed to ran away from mercenaries who hunt for human being to be sold to the priest to be scarified.
I was quite excited watching these kind of movies because it talks about another different culture. FYI, I am history and culture lover. But at the end, the movie was just another gory movie filled with blood shedding and head flying all over. Not much head flying over but I guess it is about one soul survivor escaping from dozens of mercenaries. But what makes me dislikes the movie was when he was badly injured arrow going through his stomach and yet he did not die. It's something like Ultraman series when once his heart beeping red, he is supposed to die within a minute but at the end he lives on and killed the monster which terrorised the city. I mean come on.. What kind of movie is that? Throughout my life watching cartoons like Ultraman (actually Ultraman is not a cartoon after all. Just don't get it what type of entertainment is Ultraman called), I always wished Ultraman would die faster. Or at least the monster live longer. At least the show would prolonged a little bit more than its usual half an hour. But at the end, it ended up Ultraman live and monster die either his brothers came to his rescue or he speed up his fights.
Anyway there are a lot of episodes in Apocalypto where blood were flowing all over. And heads flying here and there. Its quite gory. And some episodes like the mercenary trying to kill himself when he was injured. That part was kinda scary. I dare not watch that part. Not to say I scare of blood but rather I dare not watch people commit suicide. I have sort of phobia watching that. The more I watched it the more I felt very "geli". Anyway there is one part where this lead actor was badly injured and he can run away from the mercenaries for two to three days without resting and without getting bruise. Okay. Fine. They don't show that part. Understood. But then each time he ran the mercenaries could not get faster than him. I mean he is injured. I would say badly injured. But he can run faster than the mercenaries??? What the crap is that lah?
Then his wife was pregnant when the mercenaries raided his village. So this hero of ours put her and his son into a well. Fine. But he sort of letting go of rope a bit up from the well and the wife slipped and fell into the well. I was like, "Come on.. The wife is pregnant and she fell into the well. No matter how many months she is pregnant if she fell she would had some sort of injury and that, I guess is bad for her to be born baby. She does a lot of stunts while hiding from the mercenary. In fact she stays there for like a week with her son. I actually wondered how she could survived in the well without any water and food. Very lame movie. At the end the baby was safety born. I mean she forced the baby out and the baby did come out but it was during flood and she was standing while giving birth. I mean, "Okay.. Standing and giving birth without any midwife's help." I could take that. But she fell quite a lot of time and the baby still survived. That one I can't accept it. Don't know why. I can't see any sense watching that movie.
So people just in case you are watching that movie and planning to watch the DVD, please don't waste your time and energy. I find it very lame watching that movie. In fact at the end of the movie, the lead actor saw ships wanting to sail into their island. It reminds me of the story of Pochantas, where the native from the island met the British man. So I guess the ending of Apocalypto is the new beginning of Pochantas story, huh? Anyway whatever la. I haven't watch Pochantas yet. So I do not have anything to comment then.
Anyway that's my comment bout the movie Apocalypto. No intention to offend anybody here. Just my piece of thoughts over that movie. Okay. Time to sleep already. God bless.. =)

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Needed direction again...

It had been quite sometime since my last blog. Well nothing much to blog really except that end of this month I had to move house again, either going back Kampar or I have to find a new place to move in in Damansara Jaya or to a place nearer to my working place. Anyway I am not sure what is God having in plan for me at the moment. But I am getting weary and tired of not knowing what to do. I mean I am not sure what is in future ahead of me. All the time since last time, I never have the chance to know what is in store for me. Two of my best friend, the twin brother, whom had since became my childhood friends, was prophesied that they will become missionary for God. I mean how awesome can that be. But that time I do not received any prophecy.
And now I am facing dilemma again. Dilemma of not knowing what to do. Had been experience the same dilemma for the past 10 years already. I mean I really want to know what is God having in store for me. Tired of wondering around not knowing what lies ahead of me. =( Anyway time flies faster this month. Next week would be my last week here in this SIB mission house. And I guess I am going to miss it. Hope that I would be able to go back to Kampar soon. Away from all hassle. Don't know la. Hope everything turn up well.. =)
Anyway nothing much to blog at the moment. Please pray for me for my future direction. Whatever it is I hope that I would know what is going on.. Thanks.. God bless.. =)

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

The Passion Tour, the passion of Christ

3rd August was one special day. Well it was Passion Tour day where Pastor Louie, Chris Tomlin and Chris Hall had rocked KL as they came here for concert. At first when I went for the concert, I was kinda skeptical bout it. I mean for a guy my age, I wondered was is God trying to do in my life? I guess I am still in a blur situation of what God wants from me. But one thing I can say. I felt young again. Not because I jumped during the concert but rather God had use this concert to tell me, "Hey I am still useful to Him. But even if I am no longer useful anymore in future as I grow older and perhaps wiser, He still loves me."
Well when I went there, I would never had thought that Sunway Convention Centre was that packed. I mean it was even as packed as Youth Alive I attended 2 years ago in PJEFC church with Mun Yee, Xi Ying and Li Yan. Well one thing that amazed me was that everybody who came was very energetic. They worshipped God with their own loud voice. They rocked for Him. And I guess Passion came to Malaysia at the right time. It was during this time too that I was reminded that despite the world is evil in state, God still rules. There are still many fruit cake in this land of Malaysia. People are willing to travel as far as Kota Kinabalu Sabah just to attend the concert. I met one of my old KDU Christian Fellowship mate who actually took her time with her soon to be fiance to fly all the way from Kota Kinabalu just to attend the concert. And guess what? Both of them are Catholics. In fact I was reading some of the comments given by the concert attendee at www.268blog.com stating their own denominations after they finished commenting on the event. I mean normally these kind of event attracts charismatic churches. But guess what? It attracts every denomination youth perhaps you name it, some of them were there. I mean it is different that what I expected. Perhaps I am just narrowing my mind thinking that perhaps those who stays in Klang Valley would only come. But guess what? I am wrong.
I also saw unity in this concert. Everybody is singing the same song, JESUS CHRIST. Wanting Him into their lives. Nothing else. And when the worship songs were being played and sang, everybody (almost everybody lifted up their hand and surrender themselves to God). Mind you, these were just youth or those in their college and universities. Not to forget that there are still those like me approaching 30's who actually lifted my hand right up for Him. I am also reminded of this incident in the Bible where Elijah was running away from Jezebel. Here's the portion of scripture. It was taken in the book of 1 King 19:10-18.
The LORD Appears to Elijah
And the word of the LORD came to him: "What are you doing here, Elijah?"

10 He replied, "I have been very zealous for the LORD God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, broken down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too."

11 The LORD said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by."
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper. 13 When Elijah heard it, he pulled his cloak over his face and went out and stood at the mouth of the cave.
Then a voice said to him, "What are you doing here, Elijah?"

14 He replied, "I have been very zealous for the LORD God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, broken down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too."

15 The LORD said to him, "Go back the way you came, and go to the Desert of Damascus. When you get there, anoint Hazael king over Aram. 16 Also, anoint Jehu son of Nimshi king over Israel, and anoint Elisha son of Shaphat from Abel Meholah to succeed you as prophet. 17 Jehu will put to death any who escape the sword of Hazael, and Elisha will put to death any who escape the sword of Jehu. 18 Yet I reserve seven thousand in Israel—all whose knees have not bowed down to Baal and all whose mouths have not kissed him." (New International Version)

The word, vs 18 is the most important verse for me for this blog. It says that despite all the things that man had done wrong and how Malaysia had been treated badly in this time to come, yet it was during this bad season and bad time, God choose 3rd August 2008 as a day to let the me, Malaysians and perhaps the world knows that there are about 4,000 youths or teenagers who are touched by the event and are willing to run after Him. Just like how Elijah had failed (I mean he thought he had failed) that God shows to everybody that He is in control and despite all trouble came, there are about 4,000 who actually came to worship and seek Him. You may say, "Ya right. You believed that He is truly in control?" Well my answer is I may not have that many faith as Abraham have or any Christian heroes have, but I believe that my small little faith is sufficiently enough for me for the moment. I mean I does still have a lot of doubt in life about what God will do for me but I would not let that to hinders me. By the way, I am talking as a human being and not as God or thou are holier type of person. Cause I know I am sinner and yet because I sinned, I can know this grace of God. If I do not sin, I would not know anything bout it. Am I right? Not to say that I wanted sin to happen to me so that I can have grace. =)
Anyway second thing I wanna say is this. I saw God's grace in the concert. Not because Louie say so. But I believe it is rather because God say so. You know why? I guess God is giving us another chance to repent of our sins and take Him back as our Saviour again. In fact He want us to re-dedicate ourselves back to Him. Seriously I may say this now. And tomorrow back to my old sin again. But I guess this is a part and parcel of life. Life that God intend us to be so that we can learn to get back to our first love again which is God Himself.
The story of Ashley led me to another moment of silence. I had always wanted to leave legacy when I die or when I leave a certain people. And I never knew that this Ashley who was once a party goer and later accepted Lord Jesus as her Saviour would had died of accident. I mean I want to leave legacy to people but I never though of leaving legacies when I died. But rather I want to do it when I am still very much alive. But I guess her greatest gift and legacy as a young born Christian of 3 months would be where Louie read her diary and share how she felt bout Christianity from the beginning, full of hurt and ends with accepting Christ as her personal Saviour which 3 months later, she died with God's glory on her. I mean that's a noble gift and legacy one could have in life. She gave God glory by believing in Him and now God gave her glory by using her name and her diary to lead pre-believer to Christ. Imagine how marvellous is that? =)
Okay. I guess I had overblog this long. I hope all we who had attended the concert or have not attended the concert but if the Passion Team actually are going to your country or your area, please do not hesitate to go. Going there to be touched by God are far more important than keeping the money for your own self. Well that was what I thought before. Now no more.. God bless.. =)