Life starts at....

Today is the last day of October, which is also Halloween day. The month of October had gone, which means the month of November is coming. Well exam is coming too. 19th November. Sad case..
Anyway this month (as in Ocotber'08) surprising is a month of death. Two colleague of mine had passed away within this month. 1st colleague(so-called colleague) was my office's canteen operator and few days ago another colleague who work as an executive in professional course line has just passed away. The reason for his passing was that he got a stroke and die of heart attack if not mistaken. Well for one thing he is just in his early 50s. Not that young and neither that old too and he died early. I used to think that life starts at 40 when your career advanced and you got a family. But I guess life starts now, whether you are in your teens, youth, young adult, family man or woman and even senior citizen. I do not agrees that life starts at 40 an stated by the person of the past. (That is how the sentence like life starts at 40 came about) I guess life starts as you live now. Do not always think that I need to get this or that to start a life. For example, we need to earn big before our life starts or when our life is steady or even when we are living in glorious time. But I guess life starts when you started to learn to gain experience. Cause if life started after you had gained the experience, what is the point of having life then? I mean since we had already achieve it. For me, I am still living in a life where I am still in dreaming land. Still not able to achieve anything but then what the heck. I am still having life. At least I am dreaming. But then I need to buck myself up to actually grab that dream which I am dreaming of. I am still in the process of achieving life. And that is when my life starts.
So I guess I am starting step by step of my life by writing this blog. Hope that this life of mine written in this blog would make me starts my step of achieving dreams. =) Anyway just want to wish Mr Sothi's family member a condolence for his demise. May God bless their family where ever they are and whatever they do. =)

Happy Deepavali

Yay!! Tonight I am going back to Ipoh to sleep, study, relax, spent time with family, watch movies etc etc.. =) Not to forget to celebrate Deepavali. I nearly forgot that I am supposed to go back to Ipoh tonight cause I thought Deepavali is another week time. Thank God I was reminded when I start looking at the calender and colleagues reminded me. Too busy with works. The bad news is I am getting my pay today because of this festive season. Sucks. Got my salary pay spent it fast too. What the heck? Anyway Happy Deepavali and Happy Holiday.. =)

Relieved at the end

Yay!! My bandage has been removed officially today. Well for the couple of days ago, I was living in a bandaged life. For one thing, it's hard for me to take a bath because I need to make sure my right hand's middle finger would not touch water. Any drip of water were also prohibited. But thank God now everything is turning alright. The second thing I want to thank God for is that my application to get into Damansara Specialist Hospital for a medical check-up for my hair loss in dermalogical department has been a success. I managed to get the doctor's approval to recommend me to go that private hospital for a medical check-up and now it's up to the human resource department to actually approve me to the recommended hospital. Well as far as I know it can be easily and speedily done since it is either Ching Chin or Sujatha is in charge. =) I mean I want to lose hair and not bald at this young age. So in that sense I want to prevent the hair to drop more and to allow my hair to grow more. Otherwise I would become a bald man at a very young age. How sad can that be.
Anyway good news I am in the sense set free and more relax now. I want to thank God that despite all the anger and all the havoc I had caused, God is still in control. By the way, tonight is a night to remember because it is MCA election day. So wishy wishing and hopefully Chua Jui Meng would won the presidential post. =) Datuk Chua JM I support you although I am not officially a MCA member but I support you as a Chinese race in Malaysia. =)

Life hasn't been easier after all...

Metro bus ticket has increased by another RM0.10 lately. Sucks man.. Yesterday went for the medical check-up for my finger. Came back I always pay RM1.50 per trip. Suddenly the bus conductor told me that I need to pay an additional of RM0.10 per trip. I thought that the additional RM0.10 increased was because to avoid hassle, the bus lump up the whole sum from RM0.90 to RM1 to ease the unwanted hassle of getting the enough change if a passenger boarding the bus pays for a short distance trip with large amount of money. And because of that, I was shocked that the conductor charge me with an extra RM0.10. Perhaps RM0.10 is not a big deal. But then going from a different places to another different place daily can cost a bomb.
Sad to say, but life has not been much changed since the oil price dropped again. I mean I am not affected at all in terms of petrol usage but in terms of food and other daily consumption, I guess I does felt the affect though I do not own a car. I can't blame the government though cause for one thing they had so-called helped the country by reducing the price of oil. Not the thing is there are some certain quarters whom wanted to earn some extra lousy illegal profit by not wanting to drop the price of goods for their own sake. Don't know lah. I felt that this 2nd half a year was a time where I spent more for food and daily consumption compared to 1st half a year.
To say it this way, I hope things would turn well. And seriously I am amazed by the Pakatan people wanting to co-operate with the government in terms of rulling. I am puzzled with the sudden change of wind that last week they were talking about taking over the government but this week is otherwise. I do hope that both parties would indeed co-operate with each other for the sake of the country and not just a mere talking and with intention behind. So I guess life would be much better soon or worst?? I wouldn't know but God knows what will happen in future. Anyway anyhow may all turns up well.. For God's glory.. =)

Canon goes green...

Please support this movement.. I am planning to join this movement coming Saturday.. Anybody wants to join?? =)

Rest in peace, Mr Liew

Of late, I had been living in a very sadistic life. 1st of all, my finger was infected when I was done with fever last Friday. No big deal really. Just that my finger is filled with pore (nanah) waiting to be exploded. I blogged bout it yesterday. Anyway went to clinic since Tuesday. Ever since then till now, I had been in and out of my panel clinic to get the pore reduced or cured. The doctor put some antiseptic (it is a correct spelling??) on my finger and ever since my right hand middle finger had been wrapped with bandages. Ohh.. How uncomfortable it is for me. =( I mean I can't really took my bath cause I can't make my right hand middle finger wet. How pathetic can that be?
Anyway on the same day, one of my colleague want to match make me with a canteen operator who is a widow and possibly of having one child. According to him, she is about 33 years of age. I was like, "Oh my goodness, if you want to match make me, fine. But not 4 to 5 years older and she is a widow some more. What?!? Am I that desperate?" Anyway he wanted to bring me to that canteen for lunch but each time lunch time came, I ran away and hide from him.
And today, something terrible happened. The canteen operator had just passed away this morning. I was speechless. I was always be the one who would pass him the cheque for payment if ever my company ordered any meal or refreshment from him. He was just iun his late 40's. I was told that he was having denggi fever. Not very sure bout that. Anyway one of the senior colleagues told me, "Life is so short and so fragile. We should learn to appreciate it." I do agree with him though. I am already in my late 20's now and I find it my life runs pretty fast. Faster than I could ever imagine. Was 28 years old last year and with just a blink of my eye, I am fast approaching 29 years old already in two more months time. Until now, I guess this question has been appearing in my mind for a zillion times already. What had I done for myself, for God, for my family, for friends and for everything and everybody?? I could not find the answer for it though. I do not think that I had achieved much. In fact I do not think I had achieved anything yet. My life is still filled with ups and downs. So, really... I do not think I am able to answer anything if there are people who would there asking me such questions.
Anyway life is short and fragile. So please appreciate it. =) Well just want to say condolence to the family of Mr Liew Voon Loong. That's the canteen operator's name. May God bless his family at this time of loss. Indeed Mr Liew's loss is a loss to my company. So Mr Liew, rest in peace.

I am back...

It has been a month since my computer hospitalised. Until now, it is still lying somewhere out there with my brother's friend. Sad case la. That computer is giving me a lot of headache. But then thank God I got one.. =)
Anyway life has been a bit dull. I got my finger infected last week when I was having fever. The 'nanah' in my finger grew bigger and bigger and last night I went to panel clinic to get rid of it. I never been injected before to ease my pain but last night was my time I got those dose of injections. The doctor did it halfway before he told me to come back again today. I never knew that the infection is badly affecting me. Actually to be honest, it was my fault. I had a bad habit of wanting to trim my nail to become as short as possible. Sometimes I even use my own finger to try to pull off the roots so that the nail will grow slower than the usual growth. A lot of time it will ended bleeding and eventually pain for a little while before it recovered again.
I guess this time it had gone too far. Coincidentally, I was down with fever. Therefore according to the doctor, my finger nail 'bernanah' because of that. What's worst was my middle right hand finger nail was the one grew that disease. Imagine that how can i write or type well if my middle finger was in pain. So at the end last night the doctor gave me a packet of painkiller to ease my pain. At first after I seen the doctor I forgotten that the doctor gave me painkillers. I thought 'we ought to get painkillers from pharmacy and not elsewhere.' So I do not really bother and continue on eating dinner with about half an hour endured with my finger pain. I guess for one thing in life, I learnt a lesson. A lesson that as much as I hate to admit but it is a good lesson.
I guess a lot of time in life I had complaint and complaint (even now I still complain) that my life sucks and how I torture myself a lot. In fact I guess my life is doom to hell or something like that if nothing is to be done. But then I realised that because I had endured all pains in life before, I am able to cope well with my current life. I mean there are colleagues who had come to me and say, "You are one hell of survivor." I mean look at it this way, I always believe that I am no good. Well perhaps I am but then I realised this. I am no good to become good. When a person felt that he is not good, evetually he will being bullied by others. But then as people keep on bullying him, he learn to strive the hard way. The hard way as endurance. Eventually the people who bullies him will wear out and yet he still endures. Imagine that. I am not saying I can endure people well enough but I guess I am learning to appreciate others who had gone through the same way like me. If I were not be treated that way, I won't learn how to appreciate.
Anyway I had not been blogging for nearly a month and because of that I had became totally blank now. So I guess I won't be finishing what I want to say here. Got to go now and God bless.. =)