Honest and integrity

A couple of weeks ago, I was in Glad Sound One Utama to pay up for an item which I thought was free. As I handed up the money to the cashier, she was surprised of why I gave her money when I did not purchase anything from her. As I explained to her the reason why, she gladly accept it and thanked me. My response to her was this: "It was because I am a Christian." And a thought came into my mind.
A Christian? Hmm.... What does that mean?? Well for me being a Christian is pretty hard. Everybody knows this. Some may and some may not. But I do believe this as being a Christian, that as a Christian, we live to glorify God. God is a good God. So being His ppl, we also ought to be good. I mean living in a mentality of wanting to please God. A lot of time we choose the way we want to do thing and tell God to bless us. Do you realise the word "tell" was hightlighted? We always do things and assume God is like this and like that. One good example would be this.
There are some ppl that I know once told me this. "Lik Ee, study hard so that you can earn big money. Then when you earn big money lotsa girl will fall for you." The sentence were told to me by Christian friends. So here I got a question to ask you all here. Which part of the word spoken here talks about God? I couldn't find any. In fact I find that the sentences they use is so worldly. I mean of course it is good to do well in our studies and earn big money. God would never curse us if we want to excel in whatever things that we do but for me, eventually the sentence above had became a worldly sentence to tell ppl that if we do not do well in our studies and earn big money, we would not have a successful life. I mean come on la.. Isn't it wrong to say it that way? I mean we are looking at money as a mean of idol. Without money we would not be getting a girlfriend or getting a comfortable life. The very reason why I mention this example is because I find it pretty disturbing to me when ppl always tell me do well so that I can get a wife. I always thought isn't it right that God is the centre of us when we pray for a life partner? If we were to focus on earn big and then girls would run after us it would be a total screw-up life after all. I mean if girls were to run after us because we are rich, what would happen if we were to gone bankrupt one day? Would that beloved wife or husband of us (as a lot of ppl thought it will) be loyal to us anymore? I find it very disturbing because the era of when Christian brothers or sisters asked us to pray when it comes to finding life partner had been slowly diminishing.
Now it has always been if you do not do well in studies or if you do not well in your business and become rich, it would be hard for the respective person to get his or her life partner. Or perhaps some other success. Yesterday a friend of mine told me a story of which I myself find it very disturbing besides him (as he is the victim). A full time worker in his church asked him concerning his friend's relationship with another girl. Let's called this full time worker - A, my friend - B, B's friend - C and the girl - D. A were asking B bout C's life and C's relation to D as both C and D are very close. A thought C and D are lovers or at least it seems to him that both of them are into potential relationship. B did not know what is going on or perhaps do not want to tell A, that's according to B la. I can't remember. Instead of giving A any answer, B asked about his potential relation with D. Perhaps A would find them matching too, B thought. Instead A told B that B would never have any chances with D because D is educated but B is not. B's education level is just until SPM. After that he stopped his study and went straight into working life. Imagine this. A being a full time church worker without even thinking and being considerate saying these thing to a person who had always lived a poor and condemning life. I find it very disturbing. But thank God for one thing la. B is not badly hurt by the comment given but deep down inside I would not know.
What I am trying to say is this. A lot of time whatever we do and think is depend on what we believe is right and wrong and do we actually put God into the picture? Perhaps we do but are we wise enough to discern it in the right place and right time? Perhaps we are but there still be a tendency within us that makes us think we are right in our walk with God and I do notice a lot of time, we included our own extra luggage into our walk with God. This own luggage is worldly view. I mean how often are we, being a Christian would actually give up everything and giving it all to God. For one thing, I believe I had not really given up everything to God yet. But I am learning to give to Him. A lot of time I do believe that as much as we are Christians by name, are we Christians by our faith and walk? I do not think so at all. We may say we are not perfect but as imperfect as we are, is that a good excuse for us not to change? Nope. Not at all. I believe that a lot of ppl had heard this word from me: "We are imperfect ma. So what?" Do you know that because of that I actually learn to change. All of us need to change especially in our walk with the Lord. I always believe that our walk with the Lord is a lot about integrity and being honest to Him and to ppl surrounding us. I mean that is what is important in life. We need to show to the world that we are Christian. We do not just say we are Christian but no action. It is so hypocrite. I learnt not to be hypocrite as much as I felt that I am a lot like that.
So when it comes to first paragraph story above, I always expect and hope that I do not need to see a surprise look when it comes to Christians being honest because that is what we ought to be in the first place and not allowing non-believers to shame our Lord Jesus Christ in being honest. Otherwise it would be Christian by name and not by faith and walk. Let us not to be dead Christian but a live Christian.. =)
God bless...

Learning humility

I was talking to my unlce last week. The conversation that we had had giving me a second thought of certain issue. He met me to pass me something to passed to my mom. At the same time he asked bout my life. To be honest I really do not like to talk much to him cause for me the things that he said was always kinda an insult to me. You know lah. How aunties and uncles would tend to have a way of comparing their childrens and with me. And I hated it a lot. But that conversation actually makes me wonder.
Well as he was asking bout my welfare, I was quite shocked to find out that I no longer mad at him as I used to be. Perhaps I am learning to let go off everything bad that he had done for me. He even told me that as much as he nag at me all the time, he admit at times, he does did something wrong as well. Honestly saying I felt that this is the first time he actually come to me and admit that he is wrong although he did not really saying it that way. Well for one thing, I am learning to forgive him and others who had wronged me all these years. It's not easy but yet I do believe it is not hard as well. Just learn to let go and God will do the rest. I personally find it hard to let go but as time goes by, it's easier if we have the willing heart to really let it go.
All these while I had been learning to be humble. As much as it not easy, I do want to learn. Honestly as much as I was a nobody great and still a nobody great, letting go is kinda easier than those who are actually a somebody. What I mean here is while you wanted to gain popularity by your own strength, it is always hard to be humble. In fact it is very impossible. Perhaps for a little while but then you lose it. There are a lot of ppl who from birth was a nobody but they do have the influence in life. A good example would be Jesus Christ. He was born in carpenter family and not royal family. I mean His earthly dad is a carpenter. Did anybody knows Him by who He is or by what He do? I would say ppl knows Him because of what He do. In fact, He was mocked by His own tribe, His own hometown ppl because of whose family He is from and not because of what He do. 53When Jesus had finished these parables, he moved on from there. 54Coming to his hometown, he began teaching the people in their synagogue, and they were amazed. "Where did this man get this wisdom and these miraculous powers?" they asked. 55"Isn't this the carpenter's son? Isn't his mother's name Mary, and aren't his brothers James, Joseph, Simon and Judas? 56Aren't all his sisters with us? Where then did this man get all these things?" 57And they took offense at him. But Jesus said to them, "Only in his hometown and in his own house is a prophet without honor." (NIV)
Therefore it is not easy to be humble and influential person by God's grace but it is worth all our life to be humble and influential for Him for it was because of a Jesus (a so-called nobody) that had gave us life and life abundantly. If He were not to be there for us, we cannot go through this life. Therefore learn to cling on unto Him for He is our ultimate desire. Believe me, we need to go through a lot of suffering to learn all these humbleness and influential but I believe it is very much worthy. God had been telling us to follow the path that leads to life which is narrow path and not the wide path. So by being obedient to Him and follow Him humbly is one of the narrow path that He meant. I learnt this after much suffering from my relatives who used to condemned me when I did wrong and never given me chances to actually defend myself. But as much as we commit our life to Him, commit our sufferings, commit our sadness to Him, we will not get the chance to learn the true humbleness like Him. As much as I said this, I do believe that I need to learn a lot still cause I am still very stubborn child of His and always wanting to do things my way. But yet by His grace, He slowly open doors and ways for me to learn this humility. The time of me getting the enough knowledge and wisdom will come when I died and go to Heaven and be with Him. Until then I thank God that He show me what forgiveness and humility really means. And guess what? I won't stop there just yet. I will keep the fire going for He never gives me up but rather He is willing to trade place with me if I am going to be hurt. So thank You Lord for being there for me. As much as I know I am still a rebellious child, You still wants me and not reject me. Thank You Lord for being my Father and my God. Amen.. =)

I found my favourite song oredi.. Yay!!!

I finally found one of my favourite song in one of my cell group member's house. Well honestly this song was played by Mun Yi, my mui in her blog last time. Remember the song, Mun Yi? The song entitled "Heaven" by Bryan Adams. Yours is sang by a girl. I got the original CD oredi. Thank God I can burn it for free.. FYI this Mun Yi is Wong Mun Yi (my another Mun Yi mui and not Mun Yee). It's a different girl altogether. I always wrongly called them. But whatever la..
Back to my story. Well I found the song that I wanted so much, songs that I find it very nice. Below are my top 10 list but not in the right order.

1. Careless Whisper by George Michael or Wham
2. Nothing Gonna Stop Change My Love For You by George Benson
3. Stay The Same by Joey Mcintyre
4. Heaven by Bryan Adams
5. A Whole New World by Regina Belle and Peabo Bryson
6. Somewhere Out There by Linda Ronstadt and James Ingram
7. My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion
8. My Funny Friend and Me by Sting
9. Beauty & The Beast by Celine Dion
10. I Can't Live (If Living Is Without You) by Mariah Carey

Above list are top 10 list of my favourite songs. If by any chance did anybody have any of the songs above can you lend me the CD to burn cause I just want the songs stated above only. Anyway going back soon to indulge myself with the Bryan Adam's Heaven.. Don't know why I love that song so much.. But anyway different ppl have different taste.. So whatever la.. Got to go back to listen to the song oredi.. God bless..

I got allergy.. What the heck is that???

Today I am not well. For the first time in my whole entire life, I have allergy. I mean I eat almost everything except blood of course. And some other stuffs like balut and fried insects. Other than that, I guess I am fine with eating it.
But today for the first time, I ended up having allergy after eating two slice of mooncake made in Shanghai. I mean I do not know whether it was made in Shanghai but then a few minutes after I had tasted the mooncake my face suddenly turned red. I mean not just my face. My whole hand as well. Am I that weak? I always thought that I am super healthy. I do not get seasick when I travel on the sea. I do not get landsick when I travel to Cameron Highlands via Tapah trunk road. I eat and drink almost and nearly everything. But how come I got allergy huh? Weird la.. I guess I am getting old nowadays.
Anyway I do not know what I am allergy into but I do know one thing. I have a free half day leave today. Quite bored though. Don't know what to do. Perhaps I shall stick to study though. Don't know lah.. I guess I should start studying oredi. Yeah!! I must start studying oredi. Perhaps God is giving me a chance to study more. Hmm... Whatever..
Anyway got to go study oredi.. God bless..