Angry Moment (A little bit vulgar)

I am angry at the moment. Angry at a lot of things. Angry at a lot of ppl. Angry at a lot of craps. But my anger at the moment came from my company. Tell you a news. Bad or good, I don not know but I do feel that it is good. I am planning to quit from my company. Had been telling some ppl around. Well the response I received was pretty discouraging. I was telling ppl to pray for me and some of them who are closed to me had actually told me to stay back and work and not resign. One thing why I wanna resign is because I can't take the pressure from my colleagues anymore. Not other department's colleagues but rather the pressure came from my own department. How ironic can it be?
Anyway the very reason why I wanted to resign so much is because my colleagues (you know my fucking colleagues) was throwing extra workload to me when I oredi had lotsa unfinished work to do. For one thing, these colleagues are my senior and there is even one of them (the fucking idiot). Well for one thing, he is my junior but because his position is higher than me, he is sort of like giving orders to me now. Throwing all unwanted job to me. Not to say that I dislikes the work, but rather with all those workload that I have had, he is still giving me extra workload that he get from my boss. As in of my character, I am not the person who will rise up and argue back. Even if I did, I wanted the job so badly that they stand on top of me right now. To make the matter worst, this fucking idiot is a Christian. How idiot can that be?
Anyway the very reason why I really wanted to resign is because my senior is giving work. Extra work. Not to say that I am complaining, but if there is a slightly mistake, I would be the one who would get blamed. I mean I am following the procedure but because some fucking idiot make mistake, all fingers is pointing at me. I am totally fed up with all those pointing fingers. And I am just tired. And now I come to realise that my anger is growing. Resentment is growing. My bitterness is growing. I remembered once during a church service, Kenny asked me, "what type of bitterness that I need God to heal me for?" To tell you the truth Kenny, this is the bitterness. The bitterness of not able to do anything. Not able to live up to my dignity. Not be able to give the fucking idiots some scolding and not able to make them fall. (Do I sounds evil now?) I think I am cause I need some good rest and good things to come. I am just fed up with scoldings. Honestly saying I hate ppl's scolding. In fact, if you ask me, if I am wrong, I would allow myself to be scolded for not doing my task or for being wrong, but I am correct and right in my doings, why should I be scolded?
Anyway I am just pissed off at the moment. So ppl please pray for me and be understandable when I say things that I shouldn't say. I just need rest and posititve living. Not more and more oppression. If that's the cause of it I would rather die than living in oppression. Honestly saying I am always happy when the clock strikes 5pm cause that is the time where I would be free from work. I hate it when the clock strikes 8.30am cause that's when the nightmare came about where all those fucking idiot wondered in my company. What I really need now is encouragement and not another discouragement. If I said that I want ppl to pray for me cause I intend to quit. Just be understandable and pray for me. Don't ask questions or tell me what to do cause you are never in my position. And you shall never be. So please do me a favour. Pray when I ask for. Of course I am also praying. In fact I prayed to God first I ask you all to pray for me. Cause I am living in bitterness now.
Anyway sorry for my vulgar words. Do not intend to but then I can't resist scolding those ppl in that manner. Btw it is fun. =P Anyway got to go now. Going to New Life course right now. Therefore God bless.... =)

Life's updates

As I was listening to radio yesterday, I came to realise one thing about the singers. Singers who were in band, whether they are boy band or rock band, once they splited, their albums are not as famous as when they were in the band. In fact they do not appear to the public as often as they were when they were in the band too. Well surprise surprise eh?
Anyway I am back. Was in lotsa ups and downs a couple of weeks ago. First of all Mother's Day just passed by two weeks ago. Did not bought anything for my mom except treating her and my dad KFC. Well that was what we always do when we celebrated Mother's Day. Therefore this year is no exception. For one thing, I am into the KFC's contest of house makeover. Wanting to get a chance to grab the prize worth of RM50,000 of house makeover. I do hope that I can get it. At least RM5,000. Call me dreamer but that's what I had been wanting to do ever since I had won a lucky draw in last year's SEGi staff annual dinner. I won a RM100 worth of Tupperware brand of tupperware. Then early last month, I had won (or rather my table) had won another lucky draw. But this time in UTAR's annual dinner. I had won a wall lamp. Not bad for a lucky draw prizes. My colleagues just won hampers where once you 'makan', that's it.
So because of that, I hope to win the weekly RM10,000 organied by The STAR and hopefully a house sponsored by Garmuda. I know I might be dreaming (which I really did) but why not me? Who knows right? Anyway other than the contest, I had just finished my CIMA exam a week ago. Well for one thing, the current paper was quite easy. Not that I know what I am writing, but whatever I had memorised, I vormit it all up. Hopefully with that marvellous condition (I mean miraculous condition of memorising) I can get a good marks from the examiner. At least 50 marks would do. Cause 50 marks is my passing marks. =)
Well besides exam, I would like to thank God for His wonderful time, allowing me to be able to lead worship after so many years of not doing so. I know I am not that good in worship but hey.. I did it. All thanks to God. In fact, it was a miracle because that time I only had 40 minutes to practise before the real worship began. So imagine the succesfulness of worship leading. =) After all these years of not worship lead, this time was a well-done job though. The song that I choose was, (I believed) are powerful songs. Five songs was chosen which was Hari ini, Awesome in this place, Love You so much, Through it all and Thank You for the cross. Of all the songs choosen, my most favourite songs are Love You so much and Through it all.. Through it all meant a lot to me cause I believe that is how I felt when a lot of time when I am alone and I got no one to care for and down with bitterness, God is with me. So that song reminds me of Him. Love You so much was so meaningful to me because I believe that is how I felt when I sang this song to Him. How I love Him. It shows how He meant to me. =)
Few days ago, I was in Atria with Aaron. I came to learn a new way to earn extra few bucks. There is this Big Bookshop which have a warehouse for quite sometime oredi. One of the reason I believe why they have the sales for quite sometime oredi is because the books that they have is not that popular and not that laku in the sense. So they need to clear away all the old stocks for new stocks to come in. They sold their old stocks to the extend that a novel book which cost them bout RM20 had eventually come down to a minimum of RM1. Even with that amout, the books can hardly sold out. Cause I do not know why the books are quite worthless. Since that's the case, I was thinking and thinking hard and an idea appeared. Why not I bought the RM1, let's say bout 16 of them which costs me RM16 for the total and then brings it back to Ipoh and sold it in one of the popular bookshop there called Novel Hut (they buy and sell books) and then sold the whole 16 books to them? Each book can reach as far as RM5 per book. So imagine with RM16 as my modal, I can get RM90 out of it if each book I sold for RM5. Wow!! I actually earned RM74 for the whole book. Not a bad idea eh? What I cannot do here in KL can be done in other part of the country. It is what I called recycle. Big Bookshop staff were relieved to be able to get rid of those books, I am happy to earn a total of some big bucks and the Novel Hut owner are happy too thinking they are actually earning money out of it. Not bad eh? =)
One last thing before I end, I am planning to move to another place. I mean I am planning to move house. Stayed in this current room for RM280 including water and electricity and planning to opt for a cheaper room for RM200 without water and electricity. But I do not think that utilities will cost me that much right? I mean bout RM80? Come on.. Anyway planning to move in July.. Anybody cares to help me moving stuffs? =)
Anyway gtg oredi.. Blog too long oredi... God bless...

Give thanks even they do nothing...

Life had been very stressful these few days.. One thing in life that stress me up was working environment. I am working in a company where staffs in the company are so kiasu that they would not be there defend others and protect those who are innocent.
Anyway I had been pretty stressed up but thank God He gave me His grace and favour. One way of Him doing this is this. Honestly saying I find it pretty strange saying it but the word are quite different and for me, it is quite unique. Well the one simple word that I believe God had been teaching me is saying the word Thank You.
Well you may ask what is so special about the word thank you? Whoever had manners would had done that and it is pretty normal. Well I am learning it in a further way. Instead of replying you are welcome when someone thank me, I reply them with the word thank you back. Why? You may ask. Well for one thing. Not everyone have manners though. There is a possibility of when someone borrowed things from us, there is always a tendency they would not give it back on time or either way. when they give back they won't say thank you to us. It might not be a big issue to me, but to some they would not really like it. I mean it means there is no appreciations.
I had come to learn and apply it often in my job. Whenever I borrowed things from somebody or even ask somebody to do something for me, I will say thank you. And or when we did their work for them, instead of saying welcome, I would say thank you back. It is as though I am saying thank you to that person who thank me back. I mean we all want appreciation here and there and by saying thank you back to that person whenver they thank us is an appreciation. Imagine God had helped us, we need to thank Him for what He had done for us. And we had done that, there is a sense of appreciation. I do think that God also appreciate it when we thank Him. Because of me doing that, I somehow or rather finds favour with a lot of ppl in the company. Even my bosses. I mean I can see they are smiling. So it somehow or rather means favour from God. So beside smile more to ppl, thank everybody who you met. Who knows what favour God would give us. =) In fact give thanks even when they do nothing to us..
Gtg oredi.. God bless...

Home Sweet Home..

Just came back from Ipoh today.. Been totally energized since last Sat where I went back to Ipoh. Honestly the duration of me staying in Ipoh of 4 days had been very fruitful and very refreshing. Never in my life I had ever felt like that. I mean I honestly don't do much stuffs except stay at home studying, going shopping with my parent, ate meal prepared by my mom, sleep wee in the morning just to prepared myself for exam etc etc..
Everybody would definitely said that I am indeed having a boring life doing those sort of thing but I guess doing all those sort of things is indeed boring but come to think of it, I do not like taking stress. I mean I do enjoy my life a lot, especially the time when I go back to Ipoh. Eating dinner with parent, going shopping with them etc etc.. Life is not just about working, working, and working.. And then earning money.. It's more than that.. It's about enjoying life with the little that we earned, spending what we have with the loved one, like our parent etc etc..
Anyway been away for 4 days and I find that I felt that I am like an alien when I reached Damansara Jaya. Don't know why but I felt that 4 days in Ipoh is very long for me compared to 2 weeks in Damansara Jaya. Perhaps I am living under my parent's care that makes me felt that way. Don't know lah.. I guess I am starting to homesick again if I keep on blogging bout it anymore. So therefore I just wanna say I am happy to be back in Damansara Jaya as well I am very happy that I am able to spent some marvellous days with my parent back in Ipoh. To God be glory in this.. Amen.. God bless... =)